Prof. Kotlikoff says

14-fold higher?!?!?!?!?  wut wut WUT???

 

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/report-on-business/commentary/neil-reynolds/the-scary-actual-us-government-debt/article1773879/

 

night of the living fed, haha!

"Capitalism has been manipulated far more, and more dangerously, by the last two Republican-appointed Fed bosses than everything else added together," Grantham added. "It is naive, if fashionable, to blame the rather current lame Administration for all of our problems. They inherited a cake already baked, or better, 'half-baked,' and the master bakers were the current and former Fed bosses."

 

from this interestingly titled article:

http://www.marketwatch.com/story/fed-zombies-hungry-for-quantitative-easing-2010-10-26

;)

 

clinging to the shore

well, life takes interesting twists and turns, much like a river...

 

there are people we connect with, seems like instantly,

and sometimes we have the pleasure of spending significant time with them.

they become part of us, and hopefully we become part of them.

and like all things, this too passes.

 

the parting hurts a bit, sometimes a bit more than we like.

but i suppose it depends on our attitude, if we accept that all things end,

and if we don't struggle and fight against the current, it can be easier.

 

but, i don't think it's in our nature to peacefully let go.

we cling, we struggle, we kick and fight and scream.

just our nature, or maybe my nature ;)

 

eventually, we let go, or are carried off, and the river sweeps us on down it's path.

and if we are lucky, we bump into the shore again, and get to spend some time.

i haven't quite got to the space where i completely trust the river.

 

but i'm working on it.

;)

 

some quotes from the buddha

started looking for good quotes on love, and this played on my heartstrings:

"It is wrong to think that love comes from long
companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of
spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it
will not be created for years or even generations."
~ Kahlil Gibran

- - -

then i started looking for quotes from the buddha, and these made me smile:

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path."

"Teach this triple truth to all: A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion are the things which renew humanity."

"Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it."

"What we think, we become."

"When you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky"

. . .

peace...
-_-

PETscan results

picked up my results today, without getting into the medical language, it looks like i'm all clear.

probly should wait to hear from my doctor, but seems like good news.

:)

 

PETscan

just got to work after my petscan, this morning...

and i am Starving!  lol.

 

Positron Emission Tomography (PET)

 

basically, they told me to eat a hi protein, lo carb "last" meal. 

( i had steak, salmon, and broccoli at lonestar )

and then fast this morning.  i thought they said not to drink any water, so i didn't.

but they gave me some when i got there this morning, as i guess it's ok.

 

so, i show up early, read until the appt time, sign in, and was treated very well by the staff at Az Molecular.

David was very nice, and explained how everything would go, then he took some blood for a sugartest.

and after that he injected me with some radioactive sugar...

( apparently cancer cells love that shit )

 

then, i had to "rest" for an hour, while the sugar uptake process occurred thru-out my body.

not being allowed to read my book was a bit difficult, as i was supposed to try to be very quiet and still.

reading apparently works out our facial muscles, and that might skew the sugar uptake.  ( who knew? )

 

so, after I was told to pee ( gotta be empty ), changed into some scrubpants, and a few more minutes of rest,

David came and took me to the scanning room.  I had him put KUPD on the radio, WWBD was on, but i dint pay much attention.

then I mounted the very narrow table, and David strapped my arms to my sides, and threw a nice warm blanket over me.

he also put some spacers around my head, so i wouldn't move too much, then he said "cya in a bit", and left.

 

The machine is quietly humming.  The radio is playing, but I'm not listening.  I'm quieting my body and my mind.

I'm not claustrophobic actually, until someone straps me to a table under a big humming machine, then i am.

Just a little bit...

;)

 

So, twenty minutes later, after a lot of sliding back and forth, and trying not to move or itch, I was free again.

It's a funny thing, when you know it's done, and it's soooo quiet, and you know someone is coming soon.

"don't forget me!"  "hurry!"  "gaaaah!  untie me arms!"  all ran thru my head... lol.

but, David didn't forget, and his smile looked like he read my mind, and he got me off the table quick-like.

and I thanked him with a foolish smile.

 

Another thing, right?

It's just another thing.

And it's just another day beginning...

 

surgery

well, long story short:
went to the doctor on tuesday, after 2 weeks of antibiotics for my throat.
she sent me down to the E.N.T. guy, and he looked in my throat and said:
"oh, that has to come out, this week". 
so, i went in for surgery on thursday.
he took out the growth and most of my left tonsil...
saturday he called, and after a little phonetag i got hold of him.
he said it was cancerous, but he was pretty sure he got all of it out.
i'm not in any pain, and actually feel great.

but, i have to start going in for tests soon.
an interesting twist...
:-/

doublethink...

"he who controls the past, controls the future.  he who controls the present, controls the past" - 1984

 

http://www.zerohedge.com/article/charting-statistical-fraud-bls-22-out-23-consecutive-upward-revisions-initial-jobless-claims