okay, this might turn into a rant. i kinda feel a rant coming on, but i will try to rein in the urge. but as we all know, when you try to hold something back, it tends to fight harder to get out, so...
once again, alone on a friday night, i end up at a bookstore.
(feel free to psycho-analyze that, i'm okay with it)
i tend to start either in scifi or software, although if i'm feeling the "need" to enlighten myself, i may start in the classics. eventually, i will wander to the religion / spirituality section, as i did last night.
fridays, i suppose, are a good night for self-help and/or book clubs to meet. at least i assume that this particular group of women (and a gentleman who appeared to be attached to one of them, and possibly asleep behind dark glasses) was one of those two. they were all arranged around either the author, or the organizer - at any rate she was a good speaker, able to project and modulate her voice, and such. the gist of most of the conversation seemed to be about relationships.
i was eavesdropping from the taoist section, and she started in on horoscopes, which are fun to think about (to me), if not necessarily accurate. well, she started with the earth signs and caught my attention, as i'm the bull. she went down the list of all our supposed bad traits, and it was the usual list: stubborn, bossy, sexy, etc., and she proceeded to smackdown each of the signs, grouped by their elemental category, until she arrived at her own sign, aries. which she became apologetic for, and told some story about biting her dads finger, and how he deserved it for not listening to her. so, i pretty much quit listening at that point, as the tantric meditation book i was perusing got more interesting than her story.
now, i'm not sure what my point is here, let alone what hers was. what i took away was that, in relationships, most people just want to stick you in a box that they've built, and are comfortable with. if you stay in the box, they like that, becuz they can control you and they know what to expect from you.
if you get out of your box, they bite you.
maybe i should have gone drinking...