Prof. Kotlikoff says

14-fold higher?!?!?!?!?  wut wut WUT???

 

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/report-on-business/commentary/neil-reynolds/the-scary-actual-us-government-debt/article1773879/

 

night of the living fed, haha!

"Capitalism has been manipulated far more, and more dangerously, by the last two Republican-appointed Fed bosses than everything else added together," Grantham added. "It is naive, if fashionable, to blame the rather current lame Administration for all of our problems. They inherited a cake already baked, or better, 'half-baked,' and the master bakers were the current and former Fed bosses."

 

from this interestingly titled article:

http://www.marketwatch.com/story/fed-zombies-hungry-for-quantitative-easing-2010-10-26

;)

 

clinging to the shore

well, life takes interesting twists and turns, much like a river...

 

there are people we connect with, seems like instantly,

and sometimes we have the pleasure of spending significant time with them.

they become part of us, and hopefully we become part of them.

and like all things, this too passes.

 

the parting hurts a bit, sometimes a bit more than we like.

but i suppose it depends on our attitude, if we accept that all things end,

and if we don't struggle and fight against the current, it can be easier.

 

but, i don't think it's in our nature to peacefully let go.

we cling, we struggle, we kick and fight and scream.

just our nature, or maybe my nature ;)

 

eventually, we let go, or are carried off, and the river sweeps us on down it's path.

and if we are lucky, we bump into the shore again, and get to spend some time.

i haven't quite got to the space where i completely trust the river.

 

but i'm working on it.

;)

 

some quotes from the buddha

started looking for good quotes on love, and this played on my heartstrings:

"It is wrong to think that love comes from long
companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of
spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it
will not be created for years or even generations."
~ Kahlil Gibran

- - -

then i started looking for quotes from the buddha, and these made me smile:

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path."

"Teach this triple truth to all: A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion are the things which renew humanity."

"Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it."

"What we think, we become."

"When you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky"

. . .

peace...
-_-

PETscan results

picked up my results today, without getting into the medical language, it looks like i'm all clear.

probly should wait to hear from my doctor, but seems like good news.

:)

 

PETscan

just got to work after my petscan, this morning...

and i am Starving!  lol.

 

Positron Emission Tomography (PET)

 

basically, they told me to eat a hi protein, lo carb "last" meal. 

( i had steak, salmon, and broccoli at lonestar )

and then fast this morning.  i thought they said not to drink any water, so i didn't.

but they gave me some when i got there this morning, as i guess it's ok.

 

so, i show up early, read until the appt time, sign in, and was treated very well by the staff at Az Molecular.

David was very nice, and explained how everything would go, then he took some blood for a sugartest.

and after that he injected me with some radioactive sugar...

( apparently cancer cells love that shit )

 

then, i had to "rest" for an hour, while the sugar uptake process occurred thru-out my body.

not being allowed to read my book was a bit difficult, as i was supposed to try to be very quiet and still.

reading apparently works out our facial muscles, and that might skew the sugar uptake.  ( who knew? )

 

so, after I was told to pee ( gotta be empty ), changed into some scrubpants, and a few more minutes of rest,

David came and took me to the scanning room.  I had him put KUPD on the radio, WWBD was on, but i dint pay much attention.

then I mounted the very narrow table, and David strapped my arms to my sides, and threw a nice warm blanket over me.

he also put some spacers around my head, so i wouldn't move too much, then he said "cya in a bit", and left.

 

The machine is quietly humming.  The radio is playing, but I'm not listening.  I'm quieting my body and my mind.

I'm not claustrophobic actually, until someone straps me to a table under a big humming machine, then i am.

Just a little bit...

;)

 

So, twenty minutes later, after a lot of sliding back and forth, and trying not to move or itch, I was free again.

It's a funny thing, when you know it's done, and it's soooo quiet, and you know someone is coming soon.

"don't forget me!"  "hurry!"  "gaaaah!  untie me arms!"  all ran thru my head... lol.

but, David didn't forget, and his smile looked like he read my mind, and he got me off the table quick-like.

and I thanked him with a foolish smile.

 

Another thing, right?

It's just another thing.

And it's just another day beginning...

 

surgery

well, long story short:
went to the doctor on tuesday, after 2 weeks of antibiotics for my throat.
she sent me down to the E.N.T. guy, and he looked in my throat and said:
"oh, that has to come out, this week". 
so, i went in for surgery on thursday.
he took out the growth and most of my left tonsil...
saturday he called, and after a little phonetag i got hold of him.
he said it was cancerous, but he was pretty sure he got all of it out.
i'm not in any pain, and actually feel great.

but, i have to start going in for tests soon.
an interesting twist...
:-/

doublethink...

"he who controls the past, controls the future.  he who controls the present, controls the past" - 1984

 

http://www.zerohedge.com/article/charting-statistical-fraud-bls-22-out-23-consecutive-upward-revisions-initial-jobless-claims

 

Watching BP

it's frightening to see how this BP situation started: washington's blog

and even more sphincter-tightening to listen to Clif from HPH talk about in on Rense...

 

i wonder what the live feeds will show as TS Bonnie comes into play?

:-/

 

is there really a blackout on the gulf disaster?

i see mentioned in this article, that there is now a news blackout on the gulf disaster?

dunno if that's true, but if so, we are in some serious shit.

E.L.E. type stuff maybe?

 

X(

 

no love for the refs.

i suppose all highly visible events get some kind of controversy...

and this worldcup is no exception.

no love for the refs and their difficult job.

 

calls by refs have been making huge impacts in the worldcup games.

usa had it's fair share, or maybe a bit more.

england had it's comeback goal unfairly taken away.

ireland would have qualified, instead of the shameful french.

 

watching these games, it became more than obvious to the world

that the current 1 center, 2 linesmen fifa setup is horribly inadequate.

 

just 1 ref in the booth, with a 5 second replay window to review,

mic'd into the other 3 would fix it.

their sole duty to review and advise, not overrule.

 

hey fifa, get with the technology of the times.

this would help the game, not hinder it.

nor would it make it less beautiful.

 

the beautiful goal

i haven't posted my jubilation on facebook.

i haven't posted here.

i haven't called all my soccer buddies and gloried in the beautiful goal.

 

but, i'm smiling.

:)

 

and my throat hurts a bit...

lol.

Killing the World

so, is it morbidly funny to watch BP bumble thru their handling of the gulf crisis?

 

i guess it is, in the same way watching the Stooges perform openheart surgery on me, live, would be...

somehow, the pres pointing gun fingers at anyone, bothers me.

blame is a useless game.

 

how long will they let the stooges fumble the ball,

before they step in and do something to end this fiasco?

they both are, in fact, killing the world.

 

:-(

belief

there are things, true or not, that it is good to believe in:
honesty, equality, fidelity, self-protection, protecting the weak, resisting tyranny...
these are just some of the concepts that help us to be a good person in our community.
we were given a body, brain, and breath; use them to achieve good things.
we were given a garden to live in; protect it, and make it beautiful.

 

Spill, Baby, Spill

gawd, this looks crazy awful...

might get bigger than The Deez?

 

yikes!

 

http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2010/apr/29/deepwater-horizon-oil-slick-us-coast

 

what's next?

offbeat ideas running in my head this morning...

 

i'm reading Caribbean, by Michener, currently.

and i'm in the chapters dealing with the sugar trade,

and how battles were fought between France and England over it.

 

prior to sugar, gold & silver made Spain rich.

and the Dutch and English fought with them over those riches.

 

in the recent past, oil has made certain countries rich.

and certain countries have been fighting over those riches.

 

so, what's next?

and who will fight over its control?

:|

 

i'm sure there are other examples of economic wars,

just citing the ones that spurred my thoughts.

 

(oh, and i'm also reading The Dome, by King - no discussion)

market watch? or death watch?

wow, check out this article @ marketwatch:

http://www.marketwatch.com/story/mighty-americas-5-stages-of-rapid-decline-2010-04-06?pagenumber=1

 

interesting final line.

;)

 

patients...

my numbering scheme began at zero...

and i think we are up to 4 or 5.

 

and i think i don't wanna track these anymore.

it saddens me. 

:(

 

desperate times are upon us.

: |

 

my heart is aching for the people.

those who are lost and wandering in the wastes.

and those who think it's important to just keep doing their soulless jobs...

 

please remember history and do not rewrite the tragedies.

find the path with heart, brothers and sisters.

 

patient one?

i remember george at urbansurvival.com talking about patient one (zero?) the other day...

don't think he posted about this patient one (2?) yet: john patrick bedell.

:(

 

Yikes! i thought i was pessimistic

dr. doom?  wonder what kindof research this marc faber does?

interesting that he "predicted" the crash of '87, and the current economic turmoil, tho...

 

http://business.timesonline.co.uk/tol/business/industry_sectors/banking_and_finance/article7035913.ece

 

guess i need to do some more reading and practice my doomsayer-ese...

;)